Hey all,
This topic came to my mind because it's been hanging in there for quite some time now. They say once you put down in words whatever that is troubling you, its effect may reduce to some extent. Well, that's why I want to put down my fears here and let them be here forever.
There is a scene in the movie 3 Idiots, where Raju Rastogi(Sharman Joshi, one of the idiots) will be attending a campus interview. Before that there are several instances where he'll be afraid to do anything, may it be studying, appearing for exams or any interview. But once he gets hold of his attitude and becomes aware of what his fears are, he decides on being so daunting that no fear can touch him. And then he'll be facing the interview for the very first time. The panel will be asking him all sorts of questions like, why he had such poor grades, and there he answers to it with utmost honesty saying that he was a very consistent student while in school and scored highest marks and hence decided to join engineering, and that this increased his responsibility towards his family, because his family would look up to him so that he can provide them a comfortable living. This made him fear a bit, so he scored less and started doing all pujas(offerings) to please God, which again shattered his confidence on himself. Later then, he also attempts to commit suicide, but his friends save him, at that point-a-time he learns why ALL SHOULD BE WELL. His fears vanish in thin air and he'll be full of optimistic attitude and energy. The interview panel asks him to change his attitude because they think that he is a very frank person and they need more diplomatic candidates. On that he says "Dono paanv tudvakar aaya hai yeh attitude. " meaning "I've got such an attitude and energy having got my bones broken" and tells them to keep their job to themselves and he'll keep the new-born attitude to himself.......
What next????
He's through and that too royally where the main person in-charge asks him how much salary he demands.
I think I wrote almost the whole script for that scene. Never mind, my intention was to tell that my story of fears somewhere lies in there. But the only difference is I'm still in the middle of that sequence, and haven't approached the climax yet. I had very good grades till I finished schooling, for that matter, I was the one who never left the 1st rank position from Nursery to the 10th std and till now I maintain the record in school. But later, when I joined Engineering, it was the similar situation which I went through as I described above. I consistently got poor grades. For that matter, for the very first time in my lifetime I flunked in 2 subjects. And thus the disastrous grades continued.
But one day, I sat and thought for a while, is it me, who was a topper once and now with such results, I started contemplating and retrospected and reviewed my flaws. In that time of crisis, my family came as a huge support and I came out with flying colors(not really, but for me yes!) . Now, I thank God for putting me in such situation, because I learnt so many things within that span of time that I can never forget, every moment taught me a lesson.
It's been a year and a half I'm into IT and things are really going fine. Mobile app development is a truly interesting thing.
But even now there's a tint of fear where I'm afraid of facing interviews, because I feel I don't know technology and don't possess great skills in the technology I know.
But still, I've a simple funda for life that "This too shall pass" and God throws twists onto those people whom he thinks that they can come out of it by being even more stronger and better. I'm happy that I'm one of them.
So, globally I'm declaring that I will not fear whatever may come(silently thinking really, can I do this?).
So here I end my post, with a small quote.
"Look at Fear in its Face, so that even Fear will Fear to Face you." Howzzat!!? ;)
-Peace,
Pree
P.S. : Sorry if you find any typos here and there, I haven't really given a second glimpse to whatever I've written.
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